OH NOO!!!td gw ga bisa ngerjain ulum.22nya!gmn donk?!ulum kimia banyak bahannya ga gw pelajarin.beda senyawa ama campuran apa?dengdong.gw lebi pelajarin itung2annya.tauknya yg banyak kluar teori.duuuh,pgnya rese bgt laah.trus ulum sosia juga kyk tempe.apaan tuh 3 konsep dasar sosio?ga ngertii!mana idung gw meler mulu lg td.tisu pun habis.hix.sungguh sedih.anyway,hari ini gw gw ktemu ama si oknum X.HORE!seneng bgt gw ga ktemu muka pantatnya yg bikin eneg.ewww!itu muka apa pantat siih?!hahaha.oiya,td pas pulank skolah sempet ada conversation yg menurut gw *agak* lucu.hehe.jadi tadi kan pas pulank skolah,si febi,noni,ama nhaey pada mau beli makan dulu,makanya ke kantin.trus disana ktemu ama rangga.si noni ngebahas soal rangga ktemu cowo mirip ananta.trus...

rangga : iya no,dy kyk pake skini jeans gt

noni : (heboh) oyaaa?anantaa?!oh mai gat!gmn2?

gw : eww,co pake skinni jins tuh gross bgt

febi : engga tau.co skiini jeans keren.kyk rocker gt

rangga : (ikut2an) iya tau,,kerenn

febi : lo punya skinni jeans ga?

rangga : ga..ga enak tau bwt *itu* gw.sempit

gw : (siiiiiiingggg...)

febi : wah,brati punya *a** kecil donk je?

gw : HAHAHA

febi : melesek

gw : eh,,iya juga ya?!hohoho

rangga : hahuahauah

~fin~

okeh,,cm segitu critanya.rada ga jelas ya?!hohoho.tp klo mnrt gw sih lucu.apalagy pas si febi ngomongnya.duh,bsk ulum EM.malasssh sekaliiiii.pengen ceped2 jumat sore.bebasssh!well,i g2g.talk to you later.

~Le mercredi

haduhadu...hari ini hari yg cukup cape + rada seneng.haha.bingung kan?td pagy gw kan ke mangdu,maw beli baju bwt 17nannya spupu gw.guess what?full house!mangdu penuuu bgt!tapi akhirnya dapet juga bajunya.it was like a sack dress,with dots printed on it.tadinya sih mau beli2 baju2,jeans,kalung2.tp entah mengapa naluri shopping gw kurang bekerja hari ini.tdnya udah niat mau beli skinny jeans.udah dicoba sekitar 3 bijian,gw tiba2 ga jadi beli.abis dr mangdu gw ke EX.tujuan utamanya sih sebenernya mau beli kado bwt spupu + tante gw.tp ada maksut2 terselubung lg gtuh.sekalian gw beli seventeen US.minggu lalu gw baru beli teenvogue,with ashley olsen on the cover.duuuh.oiya,pas beli teen vogue ituh gw sempet bingung loh.soalnya covernya ada 2.yg satu covernya ashley olsen,satunya lagi mary-kate olsen.tp berhubung di kinokuniya pim cm ada yg covernya ashley,jadilah gw beli yg itu.back to the main thing,td kan gw beli seventeen,with beyonce on the cover.i like this issue so much.it's about changing things.abis dr kino gw ke chomel,beli2 kado.trus ke office2000.here's a funny thing.dr chomel gw lari2 ke satu toko yg gw kira office2000.udah lari2 sambil napsu,tauk2nya...salah masuk toko.hoho.it's pretty humiliating.but it's okay.td di office2000 gw beli bolpen 2 biji.secara bolpen gw menipis drastis belakangan ini.bayangkan,xiao2 minjem 2 bolpen (udah dibalikin sih,tp jadi seret),arwin minjem 1 bolpen (bolpen hasil tuker si amazone,but still it took an effort too),teo minjem 1 bolpen (udah gw hibahkan ke dy),mari minjem 1 bolpen (udah gw kasi juga ke dya),kido minjem 1 pensil + ngerusakin 1 bolpen dan ngilangin 1 bolpen.tapi smuanya sih udah gw relain,kecuali pensil pink yg di kido.hohoho.

aduuh it's getting late already.aku capek sekaliiii...mana besok pagy mesti bangun pegy,ke gereja.well well,gw belom belajar sama sekali niiih.gmn donk gmn donk?!!phew,gw belajarnya bsk ajalah.hehehe.hari ini puas2in maen dulu.yihaaaa!OIYA,here's a shock news!gasp,you won't believe who broke up with who!!it's hilary duff and joel madden.they said that the age gap was the problem.duhhh,but they look match for each other.hmm,another hollywood breakups.

dubidubidammm..ah udah ah.gw mau 'menyentuh' buku akun dulu.ciao everyone!

love and life.i know, i know, i talk about these two topics a lot.these two things pretty much revolving around my mind.okay,my life's been fucked up lately.i'm facing the examination week (a very deadly week) and other things that keeps bugging me.lemme chop it into one by one.

first..
the exam.noo!minggu2 mematikan sudah tiba.kemaren udah ulum mat ama listening test.trus tadi ulum agama ama fisika.i hate math and physics (no really..i DO!).but then,gw sadar ternyata belajar tuh cukup menyenangkan yaaa!like no kidding,ngerjain soal2 tuh seru juga ya.even though i'm still stuck in those lack of stupidity.but hey,things works pretty well.walopun gw kurang yakin klo gw ngerjain soal2nya dengan bener,krn gw kurang belajar.uuuuu,smoga nilai2 gw bagus deh.jadi bs nutupin nilai2 gw yang frustrated bgt.(FYI : my math and physics are very average).smoga minggu ulum ini segera berlalu!yay!trus hepi hepi lagy deh.besides,gw udah lama ga hangout kyk byasanya.jalan2 ke mall ber14.ahhh,kangen!

okay and here's the other one..
second..
ada seorang anak,sebut aja namanya oknum X.he's a new student.awal2 masuk skolah gw ama dya masi temenan byasa aja.trus entah mengapa,suddenly,coming out from nowhere,berhembuslah berita yang ckup menganggu.masa gw digosipin demen ama dya?!oh NO!trus karena gw kesel,gw datengin orgnnya.gw omel2in,bentak2.gw kira dy yg nyebarin gosip kyk gt.trus ternyata kan bkan,and i felt really bad (no kidding),then i apologized to him.trus ga tau kenapa tiba2 aja,sebulan belakangan ini tuh org bener2 such a pain in the ass!LIKE HUGELY!
misalnya gw lagi jalan sendirian,trus papasan ama dya,tiba2 dy langsung triak2 'aaaahhhh,mati aja lah tuh org.arrgh!'...okay that wasn't just it.it keeps happening all the time.triak2 ato ngomong keras2 'aaaarghhh,mati aja thu org.jauh2 dr gw sono!'..
hmmmmm,awalnya gw ga sadar klo itu gw.tapi setelah diliat2,dy cuma begitu klo ada gw.dan itu selalu.makin hari kelakuaannya makin parah!ampe org2 yang tadinya ga tau jadi sadar.si oknum X baru2 ini jadian.gw pikir dy ga bakal begitu lagi setelah jadian.but i was wrong.dy jadi makin parah!gw yg tadinya nahan2,berusaha untuk ga ngebales,skrg udah ga tahan.dan kemaren ini pas dy begitu lg ama gw,GW BALES!hahahaha.
gw udah eneg bgt ama thu org.I'M SICK OF YOU AND ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME!you could be a big shit,but i could be a real big shit!THE WAR IS ON!i'm not afraid of you or your friends or anything.CUMA ORG BRENGSEK YANG KAYAK LOE.YOU SHITHEAD!GO FUCK YOURSELF,FUCK FACE!
ngaca donk please,you think you're hot?OH NO!cuma org tolol yg mau bilank gt.gw bingung deh,apa sih yg diliat ama cewenya.buta ya?there's nothing good on him,inside or outside!HE'S SUCH A WHIMP!

huff,sorry if was being to sarcastic.i was being a realist.you never know what happened.mungkin temen2 gw bisa ngerasa bgt.gmn bastardnya tuh org.terusss aja nyolod!
bottom line is,klo dy mau damai,gw boleh2 aja.i could preted that there's nothing happened.tapi klo dy tetep kayak gt,haha,you better watch your fucking neck!seriously!

aaaa,uda ah.distop dulu marah2nya.ntar gw makin emosi lagy.whew,klo gw udah marah beneran segala kata2 yg tidak seharusnya diucapkan bakal keluar.smoga tuh manusia sadar akan kesalahannya!

okay then,cao bellas!mahap yaah skali lagy klo terlalu over.but it's the truth!

disco.baby (stuck in madness)

well,things has been a little crazy.there's aLOT of weird stuffs happening.ga tau kenapa tapi gw bingung ajah ama hal2 yang terjadi belakangan ini.but i'm enjoying my life,really.i mean,we only live life once.so why do hesitate?hahah.mulai ga nyambung nih.okay,bisa dibilang bulan novemba thu bulan yg cukup confusing.there's a made up,broke up,and all of that things.banyak juga yg jadian,tp ada juga yg putus.ada echa-marc,kido-joshine,wati-aldy,nino-nia,etc.cukup banyak kan?tp ada juga yg putus.chang-arwin.huhuhuuuuu.i won't shed a tears.but it was quite sad.i feel sorry for stella.but she could've get someone better than arwin.sorry win!hoho.anyway,move on.gw cukup dipusingkan dengan tugas2 skola.banyak project2 menanti,ulangan,quiz,laporan,blah2.cape BGT!mesti ngerjain project sir wil yg geje abis.trs selesein project kompu yg ga slese2.mai gat.slow down.i'm a slomo person.i'm not a robot.tapi senengnya sih X2 orgnya gokil2.apalagi si miss saha.haha.tyap hari gw ngakak2 molo gr2 dya.tapi tetep tugas2nya itu loh.please!tapi ada untungnya juga.karena gw jadi ga punya waktu untuk cinta2an.i really don't have time to fall in love.it's a good thing.and guess what?menurut ramalan yang cukup dipercaya,cinta gw bakal datang disaat gw sama sekali ga mikir soal cinta.hmmm,another weird stuffs happen.btw,maren gw nntn dukes of hazzard di HBO.i like it.pretty funny ya know!okay then,i have to go now.

talk to you later,

-jen

heyhooooo..lama tak mengisi blog.anyway,gw baru nyampe dr weekend routine (hangout!).hoho.td abis dr sensi trus ke ultahnya adel trus pulank.tumben bgt deh hari ini pulangnya kaga malem.jam stenga 9 udah pulang.hoho.okay hari ini gw cukup seneng.setelah seminggu pusing ama skolah.dipuaskan dengan hari sabtu.walopun ga seseru 2 minggu yg lalu.jadi pertama kita kan niatnya mau ke EX.kita mau nntn james bond yg casino royale premiere.tp jalanan macet bgt.trus kita nelpon bioskop katanya uda penuh.trus kita ubah destination placenya,jadi ke senayan city.pas nyampe sana langsung beli tiket dha.haha.walopun dapet tempat duduknya udah depan2.tapi td yg ntnn cuma gw,gby,ete,chang,dta,ama engkonya ete.yg laennya pada ke ex.haha.kasian deh kalian smua tidak menonton casino royale.asli filmnya keren.walopun rada2 pusing mikirnya.trus udah gt pas adegan dia dicambukin lagi bugil gw ga brani ngelytnya.hoho.alhasil jd rada bingung2 gt.tp tetep,filmnya worth to watch!

abis dari sensi kita heading ke pancoran,izzi pizza.di sana gokil abis.ada banyak kejadian lucu2 bo!si marc pertama disuru makan daon yg jadi hiasan di fettucini gt.trus abis itu si arwin.tampangnya pada meringis2.si arwin trus nantangin,klo dia bisa makan 5 daon plus 2 biji ga jelas,smua yg dateng mesti ngasi dia masing-masing 1000.haha.mukanya pas lg nelen thu makanan jelek abis.dia tetep makan thu makanan dengan muka yg aneh2.jadi kita smua pada bayar dia.total dapet sekitar 20 rebu lebih.nah kejadian lucu berikutnya,kita kan lagi rame-rame berisik2 gt,tiba-tiba didatengin bule.si bule marah2,nyuru kita diem.haha.trus si irvin disuru cium dane.and guess what?he did it anyway.

hmppppfff...bsk adalah the big day bwt pak jono,wali kelas tergokil.haha.bsk mau kawin nihhh yaaa paaak!smoga setelah menikah jadi ga gt kejam.klo ngasi soal jgn susah2,jgn pelit2 nilai pak!hoho.hmmm it's getting late here.i better wrap this up!bsk pagy gw mesti ke gereja alnya.talk to you later..

xoxo

guys,ya know what,gw semakin tergila2 ama Panic! at the Disco.ampe2 gw jadi disco mania gt.pas nyari cd Panic! aja gw bener2 semangat '45.trus kmrn ini pas di sensi gw beli majalah luar yang ada Panic!nya.iPod gw aja isinya video2 Panic! semua.tapi gw sediiii,si brendon ternyata uda punya cewe.pas mereka menang VMA,si brendon kayak nge-kiss cewe yg duduk di sbela dya gt.it was like a soft,gentle,and lightly kiss.aww,i want that one too!life's so unfair.i want it!mau mau mau!btw,lagunya Panic! yg judulnya 'This is Halloween' enak tuh.lagunya dijadiin OSTnya Nightmare before Christmast 3D.i love my brenny bear!ampe2 proyek kompu gw aja berubah jd disco2 gt.theme : on the dance floor.trus nama groupnya dari Sugarbaby jadi DiscoBabes.hahaha.gokil kan?!

ah,gw baru baca seventeen luar yg december issue with paris hilton's on the cover.and guess she said what?! 'the media makes me out to be this mean little brat,but i'm really,like,a good person.' ha,anyone believes her?!aye aye,get real princesa.actually i like her style aLOT,but it's not working with her attitude.my hollywood roles are nicole richie,lindsay lohan,rachel bilson,and mischa barton.they're like fashion goddesses.but i do like other teen celebs also.like ashlee simpson,olsen twins,hilaru duff,etc.ahh,but being one of them it's very confusing,i think.haha.the feuding,body image,fashion slaves,blah2.but i love it anyway!isn't it weird?!

duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.sudden death week kembali menghadang niiy.gilaa bgt d.minggu kmrn bener2 menyiksa bgt d.nilai Quiz mat gw dpt 2,trus ulangan matnya dapat *,* (terlalu memalukan untuk dikasi tau).belom lagi quiz fisika gw yg uda pasti dpt jelek + nilai ulangan fisika yg yang dpt...(sama memalukannya).god,please!kenapa ya belakangan ini gw ga ada niat ato motivasi bwt belajar.bener2 ga ada.gw bener2 harus belajar serius ni.i really really should pain my ass to get through this whole messed up things.AZA!

anyway,kemarin kan haris sabtu.as always, it's time for us to hanging out.byasalah gank anak2 yg byasa.cuma klo kali ini ditambah dengan kehadiran rangga.kita kmrn nonton WTC.and you know what,it's a very touching movie.i couldn't help my tears to fell down.i really couldn't help it.apalagi pas adegan dia nulis surat bwt istrinya.plus ditambah kenyataan kalo itu based on true event.gw ga bisa ngebayangi kejadian yang sebener2nya pas 5 taon yg lalu.gw masi sd sih wkt itu.jd lum gitu tau2 bgt.si rangga ngata2in gw nangis molo lg.dikit2 nanya 'lo nangis ya?'.(mendy..cowok lo toloong!).hahah.

and actually gw baru sadar kalo tiap minggu,tiap jalan2,gw pasti beli smoothie di Boost yang all berry bang.si irvin aja ampe nanya gini 'lo kok tyap kali beli ginian molo?'.hoho.enak sih bo.berhubung gw selalu beli yg regular (gede BGT),alhasil gw bolakbalik kencing 3 kali selama nonton WTC maren.

oiya,there's one thing.echa ama marc jadian looh!akhirnya,haha.ceped juga ya bo prosesnya.secara mereka baru kenalan pas ke dufan bulan lalu.congratz yaaahhh guys!wah,temen2 maen gw semakin menipis aja nih yg single.but who cares,gw lebi concern ke nilai2 gw yg semakin kebakaran nih.and guess what?!marc nembaknya di tengah2 mall (di depan body shop,dkt foodhall,selantai ama krispy kreme,sensi.kurang lengkap apa lgy?).si echa nerimanya lama bgt pula.pas ditembak and dijawabnya dikerubutin ama kita2.haha.pas akhirnya dijawab 'iya',kita semua langsung teriak2.ampe pada takut diusir.hoho.

trus abis itu kita ke penangbistro bwt kasi surprise ke echa.but unfortunately,it went wrong.jadi ga seru gt acara surprisenya.si marc kaga mau masuk ke dalam kardus present lagy.beli kardusnya aja udah stenga idup.gede bgt.susah bawanya.ampe satu mobil pada megangin smua gt.cape dheeee.

well,all i wanna say is that...smoga echa ama marc bs pertahanin LDRnya.i know it's going to be very hard to both of you.duuuuuh,gw bakal kangen bgt ama echa.secara gw ama echa udah kayak sejoli bgt gt.tyap kali jalan2 selalu brg echa.huaaaa.i'll miss you cha!i'll miss you bad!okay then,it's a wrap for now.talk to you guys later.

xoxo

single and loving it (or not)

heyhoooooo...duh gw baru balik dr bandung.and guess what?!perjalanannya sama sekali ga macet.really,,no kidding.pas perginya gw kan berangkat jam 7 pagy..dan sampe di bandung jam 8.30.wheww,,ceped kan?!okay..i'll tell you the route.sehari sebelum berangkat si vicky udah nginep di ruma gw.trus pagy2 jemput ke McD greengarden.nungguin c chang dudud.abis itu ke shangriLa di jkt jemputin si detta.then..langsung cao ke bandung.pas pulangnya juga sama sekali ga macet.kita berangkat dari bandung jam 11an,tauk2 udah nyampe jakarta jam 1.ga macet sama sekalii.liburan kali ini siih seru.tapii malem2nya ujan molo.jadinya ga bisa nongkrong2 di cafe2.trus duwit gw abis ceped bgt.barang gw beli juga ga gt banyak d jadnya.udah abis duluan.hahah.

here's my shopping list in bandung..

anting 22500
tas 80750
sendal 95000
mary popiens T-shirt 70000
long stripe tweed shirt 80000
loose stripe 95000
queen T-shirt 65000
pin gambar witch 4500
pin tulisan sexilicious 5000
gantungan nightmare before christmas 16900 x 2
*gw bliin bwt si noni dudud satu
kotak pensil hello kitty 19900
iket rambut + jepitan 30000
cd lagu : papa roach & panic! at the disco 150000

total shopping : 751450 (itu cuman barang2 yg gw beli doank loooh)

plus hari selasanya gw beli T-shirt di topshop 159900

silakan menghitung pengeluaran sayaaa..
hehe.

haiyaaa.cape dhe.tugas2 menumpuk.and guess what?!belom ada satupun yg udah gw kerjain.hahah.what a shame.duuuuuuu.tyap hari udah from mall-to-mall.oiya yg kmrn itu gw jadi ke pim juga.stelah begging2 ma bonyok.jadilah saya jalan2.dan ternyata itu emank bener2 couples day-out.trus kan ceritanya pada nonton the departed,tauk2nya pada ga ngerti smua.pada keluar2 lah,jalan2.gw juga sempet kabur ke kinokuniya.beli seventeen luar ama teen vogue.and it costs me Rp. 127.00o hanya utk 2 buah majalah.tp gpp c, since i like it much anyway.gw mah rela2 aja beli majalah luar neger dengan harga yg *ehmm* cukup mahal.karen gw sukaa!hehehe.well anyway,back to the topic.abis dr kino kan gw balik nntn lagi.dan ternyata filmnya cukup seru.jadi dr sekitar 13an anak (gw lupa jumlah tepatnya berapa) yg ikutan nonton, cm gw ama ete yg bener2 nonton.dan cuma kita bedua yg bener2 ngerti jalan critanya gmn.hehehe.yg laennya pd maen2.yg di baris belakang pada pacaran.duuu.cape dhe.hehe.well that was the story about our time-out-together.trus kmaren gw baru dari sensi.gila bgt d,gw skrg cinta sensi abis.hehe.kmrn gw beli plaid t-shirt di topshop.duh,tambah banyak aje daftar store yg gw adore.hehe.gw juga skrg cinta abis ama boost juicebars.smoothiesnya enak bgt.pas yg kmrn di pim aja si irvin ampe minta2 molo.hehehe.tp kmrn smoothies gw diabisin bokap.hix.okay sekarang gw mau mendeklarasikan sesuatu...gw cinta Panic! at the DisCo!!!uuuuu.mereka keren bgt d!lagu2nya enak2,video klipnya lucu2,and...vokalisnya gorgeous BGT!!!awww....loves it!lalalalla.bagi yg demen ama panic! at the disco mari kita bersekutu!heheheh.Brendon Urie...i Do HEART U!mwaxx.

i'm panic about panic! at the disco.

hmmmm
liburan lebaran yang sangat menyengsarakan
gimana ga?!
liburan cuma 10 hari tapi dikasi tugas2 bejibun
sebenernya guru2 niat gak sih ngasi kita libur?!
cape dheee
duuuuuh
hari ini anak2 pada ke pim lagy
tapi aku tak isaaa
karena akuu mau ke senayan city
heheheheh
mau liat topshop di indo
topshop diluar sih udah kebukti keren
gmn yg di indo?!
padahal harusnya gw si di ruma aje
setelah kemarin gw sakit
gilaaa bgt deeh
sakit sehari aja langsung turun sekilo
hahah
gw si seneng2 ajee bo,,turun instan
tapiii ga senengnyaaaa
ulangan & AoP susulan
waaaaaaakh
*swt*
duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
gw pengen bgt ke pim hari iniii!!!
sayangnya yg ruma di amsut pada ga ikut pegy
jemputin gw donk temen2,,hehe.

yuhuuuuu..duuuuu.gw baru bangun bo!maren kita ber12 gw, marlen, ncim, chang, arwin, marc, dane,echa,gby,ete,adel,nessa pada seru2an di PIM.from day 'till night!ampe kaki rasanya uda mo jebol.hahah.kita nonton john tucker must die.then,skitar jam 9an pada cao ke buzz cafe.tp udah ada 4 manusia yg pulank.well,,gw ndiri nyampe ruma jem 12an.kita2 rame2 sih kayaknya udah seru BGT!jadinyah ya klo jalan2 bersegitu seru2.gw ama nessa juga had our own private time.kita foto2 ama advertisement underwearnya CK.hahah.sounds camen,huh?!duuuuuuuuuuuuuu,,it was not that irritating kok!to see them together.i feel fine.haha.duh,gw ngomong makin ngaco aja.gotta wrap this up,before it became more confusing.hehe.

lalala,,hahaha.a not-so-good opening considering my ripped and blue heart (pa si gw?!)
ugh..ya pokona gt d.gw lg broken hearted abis.tp ga separah dulu c.tp klo dipikir2,gw thu tough juga ya.gw bs ngelewatin masalah2 jaman dulu scr dewasa (cie..).gw bs stand up lg abis tertimpa kejadian2 yg memilukan hati.tp skrg gw uda mulai open hati gw lg.tp kenapa?!WHY?!kok yg terjadi malah kyk gini?!emank si gw tau hidup itu ga selalu berjalan sesuai dengan apa yang kita mau.life goes the way it goes.part torn and part rose.but still..huaaaaaa.i wanted it so badly.hehe.huh.mank cinta thu dtg disaat tak terduga ya?!disaat kita lg ga punya wkt bwt mikir cinta?!hayooo..syapa bs jawab?!hehehe.duh,klo kejadiannya gini terus mah gw bs2 balik jd single minded lg.kembali menjadi seorang jomblo riang dan gembira.hah,capek deh mikirin cinta.ga bakal ada abisnya.yg ada cuma bikin hati sengsara,tp disaat yg sama bikin hati berbunga2 molo.what can i say?!jatuh cinta beribu rasanya,patah hati berjuta rasanya.hehe.betul ga?!

i love you,i need you,i want you

ramalan percintaan saia for these past few days...

021006 : kamu selalu memikirkan dan merindukan dia, akan tetapi dya tidak begitu kepada kamu.jadi tidak seimbanglah feeling kamu ini
(oh GOD!)

041006 : masalah yang ada dengan dy janganlah diperpanjang lagi.
(bener BGT,untungnya udah slese tuh.dan ternyata..he's innocent)

061006 : dy sudah mulai mendekati kamu tetapi menjauh lagi.
(swt)

081006 : kamu akan bertemu dan berbaikan lg dengan mantan.tp awas jgn jatuh cinta lg.mawas dirilah.pikirkan apa yg telah diperbuat sama kamu dahulu.
(baikan ama mantan?!duh,,it's quite impossible.haha.sorry jawa!)

091006 : awal yg baik utk memulai hub khusus,jalani saja dgn wajar & lihat perkembangan selanjutnya.nikmatilah saat2 ini saja dulu.
(maxsutnya paan ne?!)

lihatlah ramalan2 tersebut.apakah ramalan tersebut tepat?!
hmm..hanya diri saia dan tuhan yang tahu.
lol.

what hurts the most was being so close.and having so much to say.and watching you walk away.and never knowing what could have been.and not seeing that loving you is what i was trying to do.ugh,,why is love so hard to find?!when will he can finally notice ne?!is this as hard as it gets?!ahh..love is too confusing.that's why i always tried to hold my own heart.always tried to stand on my own.well,you give your heart and it might be broken...

i love you,i need you,i want you

hmmm..i feel so damn blue in this not-so-shinny- saturday
why do i feel confuse?!
why do i feel like i'm invisible?
i feel like i'm invisible
let's see the lyrics...

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could'

huaaaaa..it seems like i've been feeling blue (ALL OVER AGAIN)
'HELLO..I'M HERE!'
hahahahha
wishing that i can scream that line!
god,,help me!
so that he can finally realized
i'm still here

~i'm getting tired of pretending i'm tough~

Like a grain on the beach
Like a star in the sky
Far too many too count
With the naked eye
They won't see you

GO AHEAD WALK ON BY
YOU DON'T KNOW I'M ALIVE
MAYBE ONE DAY YOU'LL FIND
YOU SHOULD OPEN YOUR EYES
YOU DON'T KNOW ME

You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

Little things adding up
Try so hard not to rush
Giving in, letting go
Of the world we know
They won't see you

Force it down
Lose the taste
They all think it's a waste
We don't need to believe every word they say, no
They don't know me

It's so easy to be lost
But maybe you're not lost at all

DO YOU RECOGNIZE ME?
DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM?
DO YOU SEE ME NOW..
DO YOU SEE ME NOW..

LIKE I'M INVISIBLE..
LIKE I'M INVISIBLE..

ugh,damn!i hate today so much!first,(i think) failed at physics test,(i think) failed at biology quiz,my pkn paper was gone,and i had a little *hmm2* with sum1.god,i really REALLy hate this day!apalagy bsk ada ulangan mat.huhuhuuuuu.please somebody rescue me before i lose control!mengapa sekolah suka menyiksa murit2 yang sangat manis ini?!

congratz yaah bwt 2 other couples..
Mandy und Rangga
Nanda und Mey (yg udah balikan)

ayoo donk teman2!jadiaan gih!byr smuanya berpasang2an..hehe
kan seruuuu tuuuh!
how bout me?!
lemme say that i'm fine being single
but i'm getting tired of pretending i'm tough
lol.

as i was saying,,cowo2 X2 tuh gentle2!satu kelas tuh bae2 bgt!makasy yah bwt rangga,xiao2,mus2,mariChan,teO.makasy yah rangga uda dipinjemin jaketna.trus bwt smua org yg ngebantuin gw pas lg sakit.huaaaaa.love you lots!bus X2 tuh emank gada mati'na.ada yang munta2 terus (which is me),ada yg mimisan (gw lagy),ada yg kentut,ada yg kencing di botol (mari),trus kido melakukan suatu aib (aib kelas nih,jd ag bs dikasi tau),trus karaokean,pada maen tebak2an,ada yg gandengan tangan,ada yg striptease.SERU SEKALY!trus banyak yg jadian pula lg!congratz yaah bwt chang en dane.hahaha.ampe gw stuck di kamar'na aconk selama stnga jam.overall,it's been a great trip!mau lagy!wiuuuw!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

waaaa!gw baru balik dr jogja nih td pagy.gila java tripna seru stenga idup!di bus tuh fun bgt!tapi sayangna gw didera penyakit2.huaaaa.bayangkan..pas perjalanan ke bandung gw muntah 2 kali.trus pas pulank dr jogja gw munta lg 2 kali.trus tenggorokan gw sakit,and ga bisa nelen.plus gusi gw rada luka gt jadinya klo makan susa.ditamba lg kulit muka gw yg lg ganti kulit.jadinya kelupas2 gt.jadi perih bgt,klo ketawa kayak ketarik gt.bweeh.dan..pas baru nyampe bandung badan gw rada panas gt.lemees BGT!gmn dgn penyakit gw?!hahahaha.a little is not enough.
tapi,,bus X2 serunya stenga idup!anak2 cowonya gentle smuaa!trus cewe2nya kompak2.gilaaa..gw cinta bgt ama kelas X2.hehehe.LAFF YA!

I have made a terrible mistake AGAIN!this is the second one!please,,forgive me my dear!i think i'm starting to like you!i think i'm in love with you.and i just said it.aww.

It's my birthday and I'll do what I want to
Fuck you it's my birthday.
A special holiday only for me, so do what I say.
It's my party, I'll make you cry if I want to...or leave.
Fuck you, it's not your birthday, so do what I say.
For 24 hours your wishing me well, 364 days I'm in hell,
Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me.
Alone on my Birthday.
I'm going to Denny's 10 times today, No Tip!
It's my birthday, so do what I say.
Thanks mom didn't have an abortion;
or my birthday wouldn't be today,
but I guess it's just my good fortune, my birthday's today ok.
For 24 hours your wishing me well, 364 days I'm in hell,
Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Spank Me!
Oh well,
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
I can't believe you forgot my birthday.
It's my birthday and you're wrecking it.
Now it's just like every other day you, didn't do what I say.
How could you forget my birthday?
That's really immature.
Fuck you for forgettin my birthday, you didn't you what I say today.
24 hours, no wishing well, now 365 days I'm in Hell,
Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.


*loves it!The Vandals,,you ROCK!

huaaaa..today is my birthday!happy birthday to me!haha.but why do i feel sorrow?!can't describe it.thanks for the people who sent me birthday messages.aaaah..so glad to have you guys as my friends.LOVE YA'LL!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

ARGH!i have made a terrible mistake!it was so stupid!i can't stop blaming myself!OH NO!please,,reply me again dear!i won't do the same thing.AGAIN!god please help me!tell him to do it again!i will reply him nicely!please!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

here i go all over agaiin.entah mengapa gw semanget bgt ngisi ni blog.haha.maklum lah,udik.10 jam lagi menjelang kedewasaan (or not).gw ngerasa kok gw umur 15 taon tapi masi kayak anak 12 taon.except the love things.i learnt aLOT from the past.i wouldn't possibly do the same mistake EVER again.haha.agak emosional ya?!sepertinya gw tamba dewasa dalam hal2 tertentu doank d.plus,badan gw seakan2 ga tumbu2.please god,tambah 15 cm sajaaah!ya tuhaaan..tolong!trus kurangin 8 kilo sajaaah,Tuhan!kabulkaaan permintaaan hambamuuu!amin.tubuh seperti anak kecil,wajah seperti anak kecil,sifat seperti anak kecil,suara seperti anak kecil,cara jalan seperti anak kecil,dan segala sesuatu selayaknya anak kecil.OH TIDAK!

everyday seems the same to me.membantu teman dalam urusan percintaan,tetapi tidak dengan diri sendiri.karena klo dipikir2,gw tuh bego bgt ya.knp?!knp gw bs sampe sebego itu?!but still,if we never fails,we never learns from experience.jd ya gw ambil hikmahnya aja.smua org ngelyt gw sebagai seorang yg 'slalu tersenyum','happy','cheer',but still don't now the weight that i'm carrying.behind my eyes,there's a sad girl crying.i couldn't able to wrap it up.hope there'll be someone who can take me away from the sadness.and when the time is come,i hope it's...HIM!

and I love you now

and I hate you now

and I miss you most of all

all those times we laughed

the scars that you left

still i miss you most of all

there's always something different going wrong

the path I walk is in the wrong direction

there's always someone fucking hanging on

can anybody help me make things better?

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

hmm..skrg gw lg di rumah,ngisi2 blog.gada kerjaan,hari sabtu ga kmn2,hanya ol,dan terduduk di depan kompu,sambil masukin lagu ke iPod.oh mai gat!kesannya gw kesepian bgt ya?!huahaha.begitulah kehidupan saya.sejak berenti les biola,setiap sabtu jadi lebi banyak waktu bwt hore2.tp gw kangen maen biola lagi niih!kpn donk ya?!mauuuu lagiii!padahal gw udah ampir 2 taon tuh.huh,dasar guru sial!pake ngatain tampang gw nyolot lg.kyk tae.muka manis gini masa dibilank nyolot c?!mata lo aja tuh picek!katarak ya bang?!huahaha.hmm,okeh lanjuut!berhubung hari ini gw ga kmn2 brati nanti gw bs lanjutin nntn serial korea yang sempat tertunda gara2 'sudden death week'.bwt yg anak2 angkatan gw pasti tau dah 'sudden death week' tuh paan.hahahaha.untungnya sii uda slese.tinggal hari slasa kita mau java trip!asooy!tapiii..eits,tunggu duluu!pulank dr java trip nanti ulangan + project udah menunggu!let us pray teman2,mari kita hadapi dengan hati lapang!AZA!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

here's no love today,though i tried in every way to make it happen

guys!guess what?!13 hours from now..i'll turn fifteen!yipiiieee...prasaan ceped amat yaa?!prasaan baru taon lalu gw ngerayain bDay gw di TA.and now,1 years had passed by!and i can't wait till tommorow,and saying to myself 'happy birthday jen,you had succesfully passed 1 year!'
can u believe what had happened to me from my last bday?!you wouldn't think...i'll tell you later!

haiii!this is my first post!lalalalala.makasy yaaah hipo!hipo is the best!she sings,she plays music instrumentS,she speechs,and now she edits!hahahaha.kok gw kyk promosi hipo gini yaah?!lalalalalala.gpp deh,untuk menunjukan betapa terima kasih gw ama hipo!WAAAAAW!