I just got back from netherlands.

Back in milan. in this shitty summer...it's too hot..it's just too hot

and i miss my boyfriend so much

i already miss him and Holland as well

even if it was just this morning that i went back here. lol.

it was an amazing 10-day-vacay

i always love everytime i go to Holland. i love that country.

it's hot in here. and starting from tomorrow...my exam week will officially begin

say hello to 6 dreadful exams.

i definitely not in the mood

not to mention my wisdom teeth, that are growing, hurt like hell

i've been taking ibuprofen like crazy

i just wanna go back to Holland and hug my boyfie :')

forget the reality.

O HAPPY DAY.

hari ini sungguh hari yang menyenangkan. walaupun seharian ga ngapa-ngapain. cuma skype-jumping dengan bbrp org.. including my mom&dad and my other 2 friends.

so..what's so happy about?

pagi2 gw bangun..cek bb..dan di group TKI milano (group iseng2 bikinan kita anak2 indo) ada 1 good news bgt..jreng2..FEFE dpt scholarship !!! doa gw bener terkabul..well, doa kita semua. kita semua berdoa supaya temen kita yg satu ini dapet scholarship jadi dy lanjut kuliah di sini, kalau enggak.. dy bakalan for good. dan HURRAY! i'm really happy fefe ga jadi for good.

setelah kita kehilangan citta yg duluan for good 2 hari yg lalu :'(

anyway..and then..gw ke post office ngurusin permesso (permit of stay) gw yg ud hampir expired. dan untungnya lancar....dpt panggilan pertama itu 5th of nov. phewww...

i love today.

and tomorrow..one of my good friends is coming from switzerland..

my highschool friend..kevin aditya kuuuuuu

anyway..this week is my sober week.

am not going to drink any alcohol drinks this week.

i got drunk twice last week..2 days in a row

not good. therefore... let's sober up !

Milan, 13 October 2010.

Jen.

Milan, you look beautiful tonight.

I don't know why, but I really love milan today. this is rare. and odd. despite all those things that happened to me today, I still feel in love.

okay, jadi hari ini itu ada opening ceremony 2nd year di sekolah gw. gw uda prepared everything bgt. i even got out from the house 30 minutes earlier. bus 92 dateng cepet..asik..BUT..bus 90 nya...VAFFANCULO..

lemme explain first, to get to my school from my house, you have to take bus number 92, only 4 or 5 stops, and then exchange infront of LODI metro with bus number 90 for another 3 stops. usually this only take for 15 till 20 minutes if everything goes right. but since this is italy, it can take 40 minutes or more.

so, when i was waiting for bus number 90 after 92, i saw the board..and it said..18 minutes! mio Dio, the opening ceremony starts in less than 10 minutes. therefore, i decided to walk..which could take approx 10 minutes. and i was wearing a wrong shoes. it got my feet hurt. oh well..

but i managed to get there in time. phew...

it was really good to see all your friends. i was amazed to see their changes and so did they with mine. i got some compliments *YAY* hahahah..about me losing some weight *HURRAY* and my boobs getting bigger *LOL* or prettier and blah2..it got me into such a mood..good one.

so i got home..and later went out for dinner with my friends.

it was a nice italian restaurant. the food was great. i swear to myself i'm gonna take my mom and brothers to this restaurant when they come here next month. or my dad, who's coming here as well on january.

and i was waiting for the tram to go back...and i got troubled with, again, italian transportation. idk why they just let people out from the tram for no reason. TYPICAL. so i took a cab instead. while i was on my way back, i looked around milan from the window. and i love what i saw. i repeat, this is rare.

well anyway, enough for now. based on this post you all know that i'm back again in Milan. I had such great times in Netherlands. and looking forward to go back again. hope my permesso (permit of stay) will be out easily *finger-crossed*..otherwise i won't be able to go out from this country (other than Indonesia) after my visa expired.

so, good night people. hope you are fine wherever you are. kiss.

Milan, 7 october 2010.

Jen.

allow me to exaggerate a memory or two.

the kind of feelings when you're high.

WELCOME DEAR OCTOBER!

welcoming the new month with a clean slate. well, kinda. okay, so actually no.

bangun dengan otak yang masi bego. masih efek dari kemarin malam.

so, yesterday i went to Amsterdam, my favourite city in the whole world. seriously.

and you know stuff to do there. so i did what i had to.

but this time, uda berpenglaman sedikit.

ended up doing that in hemelrijken's couch. and it lasted for about 10 hours. good stuff.

rise and shine. and welcome dear fall.

Eindhoven, 1 October 2010.

welcoming the fall.

hello everyone...how are you doing? been meaning to write a couple of times before..tapi banyak kerempongan duniawi.. hahahaha.. jadi ga jadi nulis..

anyway.. i'm back in milano now

it was HARD at first. i get used to Jakarta so much.. flight JKT-DXB DXB-MXP gw spent dengan super mewekkkkk... sampe sini pun yg masih ngambang2 gmn gitu.. utgnya tiap hari jalan2 ktemu tmn2.. jadi yaa skrg udah mayannnn bangettt

itu lahh syndrom kelamaan + keenakan di Jakarta..

a LOT had happened since my last post. seriously.. a week.. days.. hours.. can actually change a lot. be back to that later. but for now.. i'm welcoming the fall. kemarin seharian ujan2 gajelas.. dan skrg pagi2 knp udah gerimis terus.. ahhhhh.. saya malasss sekaliii fall + winter.. shittt.. masa2 makan kayak babi tanpa batas.. kedinginan mampus.. mager di ranjang sambil selimutan.. ohhh tidakkkk

pas di airport kemarin gw baru sadar.. gw 3 bulan di indo ternyata main2 sama bonyok yg bener2 quality time itu jarang. jalan2nya sama temen2 terus.. klo dirumah pun gw maennya di kamar terus.. hikshiks hahahaha.. maaf papa mama.. ntr liburan mendatang saya janjikan quality time yang lamaaaaaa dan berarti dan serrriiiiing dah hahahaha

well.. i think it's enough for now. i'm going back to sleep.. i guess.. idk.. abisan gw uda bangun jam 7 pagi tadi.. sejak sampe masi kebangun jam 7 pagi terus.. jet laggggg... ntr siang mau stalking fashion shows.. nungguin model2 + 'it' people keluar trus jepret2 mereka sambil liatin dengan muka mupeng hahahha..

ahh.. i miss indonesia. i miss jakarta. i miss my family. i miss my friends.

have a great weekend everyone ! love ya all !

Milan, 25 September 2010.

Jen.

LOVE IS BLIND. I AM NOT.
even though my eye had been scarred. I still can see perfectly.

love is blind. that's for sure. and i'm saying this not just because it's something universal. because it is true. and i had experienced it. and lemme tell you, it's terrible.
i'm not being sarcastic or too emotional when it comes to love. because i love love, who doesn't.
but sometimes, people are too blinded by love.

gw tb2 pngn ngmg ttg ini karena baru2 aja ada tmn gw yg di'buta'kan cinta. yg namanya cinta itu klo lg 'tinggi'2nya emang suka bikin org ilang akal sehat. jadi gw ada tmn gw yang kehilangan prinsip awal dy. dan by any reason, gw sama sekali ga nge-judge dy. because it can happen to everyone. gw sendiri pernah ngalamin dibutakan cinta. a couple of times...hmmm..okay, lots of times. gw perna suka bgt sama cowo yg mukanya GA banget, perilakunya GA banget pula. trus gw bertahun2 stumbling and crawling over my ex krn terlalu 'buta' juga. and last year, gw terlalu 'buta' akan cinta sampe gw bs dibilang jd 3rd party sebuah pasangan, and i'm not proud of this. tapi dari semuanya, gw ga menyesal akan semuanya. karena dari semua pengalaman2 itu jd ngebentuk gw banget skrg. i won't be who i am today if it's not because of my past.

mengenai semua ke'buta'an cinta gw akan gw ceritakan di post2 berikutnya ya. because i'm sure it will be an interesting story to be shared. dan di post ini gw pengen menekankan akan buta-nya cinta. i know it's easy for me to say klo kita ga boleh bgini bgitu blah2.. bisa aja kita skrg ngmg berapi2 ttg betapa kuatnya otak kita utk ga terlalu digoblokin cinta. tapi kenyataannya, klo dihadapin sama cintanya itu sendiri, dan kita mulai attracted sama dy, those things that we have will be gone in an instant. gw sadar banget akan hal ini. karena the last time, i had this moment. otak gw bener2 isinya cuman ttg itu org. segala hal yg harusnya gw pikirin gw abaikan begitu aja. bahkan sampai jd 3rd party..God.

butuh waktu yg lama buat gw sadar klo emang kdg cinta itu ga boleh terlalu buta. klo terlalu buta, kita akan ngeliat smua hal itu indah2 aja. ga peduli dengan apapun pokoknya cinta itu harus terwujud. dan akhirnya, itu akan bikin kita kecewa berat bahkan depresi *lebay* klo ternyata cinta itu berjalan ga sesuai harapan kita. dan gw sering bgt liat org2 di sekitar gw, baca di timeline twitter, baca blog, fb... banyak bgt cewe/cowo yang super desperate krn cinta. Please people, hidup lo lebih berarti drpd cuma mikirin cinta yang terlalu buta itu.

seorang cewe akan ga pduli akan kenyataan klo dy lg deket sama cowo yg sebenernya masih punya cewe. atau.. cowonya itu baru aja putus dari cewenya dan langsung lari ke dy.. atau.. cowo itu ngetreat dy dengan ga semestinya.. tp dy tetep menerima dgn lapang dada setiap kali itu cowo dengan labilnya dan seenaknya cari dy klo lg butuh aja.
ada lagi cowo.. dibutain cinta.. sampe harga dirinya sebagai cowo diinjek2 cewe. disuruh2 jd kyk babu mau2 aja, dibego2in, dingambekin terus2an.. and blahblahblah...

WAKE UP PEOPLE!
hidup lo pada itu ga cuma berputar disekitar cinta2an lo doang. masih banyak hal lain diluar itu yg bisa bikin lo bersyukur. cinta dari keluarga, teman2, Tuhan, and so on.
i'm sharing this because it truly happened to me. dan gw sadar betul ga gampang untuk kembali 'melek' setelah cukup 'buta' akan cinta. sometimes, we have to hit rock bottom in order to rise back above it all. kadang2 kita butuh sesuatu (rock bottom).. kenyataan yg pahit bgt.. yg sangat mengecewakan buat kita melek lagi.. mungkin dalam istilah kebutaan.. kita kyk ganti kornea mata kali ya..jadi bisa ngeliat lagi.
kita ga bs paksa diri kita untuk MELEK dengan cepet. semuanya butuh proses. dan terkadang kita kembali buta lg. time will tell.. kita dengan sendirinya akan melek sendiri.. sembuh dengan sendirinya.. bisa jg dibantuin sadarin sama org2 sekitar kita.. tp dari smua itu.. yg paling ampuh ya kesadaran diri sendiri.. krn kadang2 kenyataan aja ga cukup untuk bikin kita melek.

so, bottom line is... MIND OVER HEART. ga usah maksain cinta yang buruk untuk kita. karena gw yakin in the end.. Tuhan pasti bakal kasih yang terbaik buat kita. so cheers to us all! buat smua yg lg dibutakan, sudah melek, atau akan dibutakan (jgn sampai ya..) .. too much of anything won't do good.. i dedicated this post to all of you. kiss.

Jakarta, 15 September 2010.


Jen.

hell-ooooo people...God, it's been a while.. no, wait a minute. not just a while.. it's been TOO long since the last time I dropped by here. as you can see down there, my last post was like... err.. more than 2 years ago hahahaha..

so.. apa yg membuat gw tiba2 memutuskan untuk menulis blog lg? and fyi, i'm not making a fashion blog. hehe.. idk.. tb2 aja pengen nulis2 lagi.. cerita uneg2 hati and blahblahblah.. sebenernya gw ud niat mau nulis blog gw uda lama.. trus kebanyakan mager.. ditambah gw lupa password blog gw hahahha..

pas gw buka blog gw..gw sempet kaget.. masi 16 taon booo gw pas terakir gw nulis.. trus gw sedikit baca yg diatas2.. gilaa masi awal taon 2008 gt.. awal masa2 'asik2' gw hihihi.. trus smpt shock betapa PINK-nya blog gw jaman dulu.. bener2 masi labil yakkkk... hihihih.. trus gw minta bantuan hipo buat edit sana sini.. secara gw ga ngerti gini2an.. blog gw jg ini dibikinin hipo dulu (thanks hipp hipp hurrayyyy).

anyway.. i think i'm going to post more religiously from now on. about what? things i see in life, around me, or my oh-so-called life.. so, don't forget to drop by people. kiss and love.

Jakarta, 13 September 2010.

Jen.