heyhoooooo...duh gw baru balik dr bandung.and guess what?!perjalanannya sama sekali ga macet.really,,no kidding.pas perginya gw kan berangkat jam 7 pagy..dan sampe di bandung jam 8.30.wheww,,ceped kan?!okay..i'll tell you the route.sehari sebelum berangkat si vicky udah nginep di ruma gw.trus pagy2 jemput ke McD greengarden.nungguin c chang dudud.abis itu ke shangriLa di jkt jemputin si detta.then..langsung cao ke bandung.pas pulangnya juga sama sekali ga macet.kita berangkat dari bandung jam 11an,tauk2 udah nyampe jakarta jam 1.ga macet sama sekalii.liburan kali ini siih seru.tapii malem2nya ujan molo.jadinya ga bisa nongkrong2 di cafe2.trus duwit gw abis ceped bgt.barang gw beli juga ga gt banyak d jadnya.udah abis duluan.hahah.

here's my shopping list in bandung..

anting 22500
tas 80750
sendal 95000
mary popiens T-shirt 70000
long stripe tweed shirt 80000
loose stripe 95000
queen T-shirt 65000
pin gambar witch 4500
pin tulisan sexilicious 5000
gantungan nightmare before christmas 16900 x 2
*gw bliin bwt si noni dudud satu
kotak pensil hello kitty 19900
iket rambut + jepitan 30000
cd lagu : papa roach & panic! at the disco 150000

total shopping : 751450 (itu cuman barang2 yg gw beli doank loooh)

plus hari selasanya gw beli T-shirt di topshop 159900

silakan menghitung pengeluaran sayaaa..
hehe.

haiyaaa.cape dhe.tugas2 menumpuk.and guess what?!belom ada satupun yg udah gw kerjain.hahah.what a shame.duuuuuuu.tyap hari udah from mall-to-mall.oiya yg kmrn itu gw jadi ke pim juga.stelah begging2 ma bonyok.jadilah saya jalan2.dan ternyata itu emank bener2 couples day-out.trus kan ceritanya pada nonton the departed,tauk2nya pada ga ngerti smua.pada keluar2 lah,jalan2.gw juga sempet kabur ke kinokuniya.beli seventeen luar ama teen vogue.and it costs me Rp. 127.00o hanya utk 2 buah majalah.tp gpp c, since i like it much anyway.gw mah rela2 aja beli majalah luar neger dengan harga yg *ehmm* cukup mahal.karen gw sukaa!hehehe.well anyway,back to the topic.abis dr kino kan gw balik nntn lagi.dan ternyata filmnya cukup seru.jadi dr sekitar 13an anak (gw lupa jumlah tepatnya berapa) yg ikutan nonton, cm gw ama ete yg bener2 nonton.dan cuma kita bedua yg bener2 ngerti jalan critanya gmn.hehehe.yg laennya pd maen2.yg di baris belakang pada pacaran.duuu.cape dhe.hehe.well that was the story about our time-out-together.trus kmaren gw baru dari sensi.gila bgt d,gw skrg cinta sensi abis.hehe.kmrn gw beli plaid t-shirt di topshop.duh,tambah banyak aje daftar store yg gw adore.hehe.gw juga skrg cinta abis ama boost juicebars.smoothiesnya enak bgt.pas yg kmrn di pim aja si irvin ampe minta2 molo.hehehe.tp kmrn smoothies gw diabisin bokap.hix.okay sekarang gw mau mendeklarasikan sesuatu...gw cinta Panic! at the DisCo!!!uuuuu.mereka keren bgt d!lagu2nya enak2,video klipnya lucu2,and...vokalisnya gorgeous BGT!!!awww....loves it!lalalalla.bagi yg demen ama panic! at the disco mari kita bersekutu!heheheh.Brendon Urie...i Do HEART U!mwaxx.

i'm panic about panic! at the disco.

hmmmm
liburan lebaran yang sangat menyengsarakan
gimana ga?!
liburan cuma 10 hari tapi dikasi tugas2 bejibun
sebenernya guru2 niat gak sih ngasi kita libur?!
cape dheee
duuuuuh
hari ini anak2 pada ke pim lagy
tapi aku tak isaaa
karena akuu mau ke senayan city
heheheheh
mau liat topshop di indo
topshop diluar sih udah kebukti keren
gmn yg di indo?!
padahal harusnya gw si di ruma aje
setelah kemarin gw sakit
gilaaa bgt deeh
sakit sehari aja langsung turun sekilo
hahah
gw si seneng2 ajee bo,,turun instan
tapiii ga senengnyaaaa
ulangan & AoP susulan
waaaaaaakh
*swt*
duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
gw pengen bgt ke pim hari iniii!!!
sayangnya yg ruma di amsut pada ga ikut pegy
jemputin gw donk temen2,,hehe.

yuhuuuuu..duuuuu.gw baru bangun bo!maren kita ber12 gw, marlen, ncim, chang, arwin, marc, dane,echa,gby,ete,adel,nessa pada seru2an di PIM.from day 'till night!ampe kaki rasanya uda mo jebol.hahah.kita nonton john tucker must die.then,skitar jam 9an pada cao ke buzz cafe.tp udah ada 4 manusia yg pulank.well,,gw ndiri nyampe ruma jem 12an.kita2 rame2 sih kayaknya udah seru BGT!jadinyah ya klo jalan2 bersegitu seru2.gw ama nessa juga had our own private time.kita foto2 ama advertisement underwearnya CK.hahah.sounds camen,huh?!duuuuuuuuuuuuuu,,it was not that irritating kok!to see them together.i feel fine.haha.duh,gw ngomong makin ngaco aja.gotta wrap this up,before it became more confusing.hehe.

lalala,,hahaha.a not-so-good opening considering my ripped and blue heart (pa si gw?!)
ugh..ya pokona gt d.gw lg broken hearted abis.tp ga separah dulu c.tp klo dipikir2,gw thu tough juga ya.gw bs ngelewatin masalah2 jaman dulu scr dewasa (cie..).gw bs stand up lg abis tertimpa kejadian2 yg memilukan hati.tp skrg gw uda mulai open hati gw lg.tp kenapa?!WHY?!kok yg terjadi malah kyk gini?!emank si gw tau hidup itu ga selalu berjalan sesuai dengan apa yang kita mau.life goes the way it goes.part torn and part rose.but still..huaaaaaa.i wanted it so badly.hehe.huh.mank cinta thu dtg disaat tak terduga ya?!disaat kita lg ga punya wkt bwt mikir cinta?!hayooo..syapa bs jawab?!hehehe.duh,klo kejadiannya gini terus mah gw bs2 balik jd single minded lg.kembali menjadi seorang jomblo riang dan gembira.hah,capek deh mikirin cinta.ga bakal ada abisnya.yg ada cuma bikin hati sengsara,tp disaat yg sama bikin hati berbunga2 molo.what can i say?!jatuh cinta beribu rasanya,patah hati berjuta rasanya.hehe.betul ga?!

i love you,i need you,i want you

ramalan percintaan saia for these past few days...

021006 : kamu selalu memikirkan dan merindukan dia, akan tetapi dya tidak begitu kepada kamu.jadi tidak seimbanglah feeling kamu ini
(oh GOD!)

041006 : masalah yang ada dengan dy janganlah diperpanjang lagi.
(bener BGT,untungnya udah slese tuh.dan ternyata..he's innocent)

061006 : dy sudah mulai mendekati kamu tetapi menjauh lagi.
(swt)

081006 : kamu akan bertemu dan berbaikan lg dengan mantan.tp awas jgn jatuh cinta lg.mawas dirilah.pikirkan apa yg telah diperbuat sama kamu dahulu.
(baikan ama mantan?!duh,,it's quite impossible.haha.sorry jawa!)

091006 : awal yg baik utk memulai hub khusus,jalani saja dgn wajar & lihat perkembangan selanjutnya.nikmatilah saat2 ini saja dulu.
(maxsutnya paan ne?!)

lihatlah ramalan2 tersebut.apakah ramalan tersebut tepat?!
hmm..hanya diri saia dan tuhan yang tahu.
lol.

what hurts the most was being so close.and having so much to say.and watching you walk away.and never knowing what could have been.and not seeing that loving you is what i was trying to do.ugh,,why is love so hard to find?!when will he can finally notice ne?!is this as hard as it gets?!ahh..love is too confusing.that's why i always tried to hold my own heart.always tried to stand on my own.well,you give your heart and it might be broken...

i love you,i need you,i want you

hmmm..i feel so damn blue in this not-so-shinny- saturday
why do i feel confuse?!
why do i feel like i'm invisible?
i feel like i'm invisible
let's see the lyrics...

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could'

huaaaaa..it seems like i've been feeling blue (ALL OVER AGAIN)
'HELLO..I'M HERE!'
hahahahha
wishing that i can scream that line!
god,,help me!
so that he can finally realized
i'm still here

~i'm getting tired of pretending i'm tough~

Like a grain on the beach
Like a star in the sky
Far too many too count
With the naked eye
They won't see you

GO AHEAD WALK ON BY
YOU DON'T KNOW I'M ALIVE
MAYBE ONE DAY YOU'LL FIND
YOU SHOULD OPEN YOUR EYES
YOU DON'T KNOW ME

You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

Little things adding up
Try so hard not to rush
Giving in, letting go
Of the world we know
They won't see you

Force it down
Lose the taste
They all think it's a waste
We don't need to believe every word they say, no
They don't know me

It's so easy to be lost
But maybe you're not lost at all

DO YOU RECOGNIZE ME?
DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM?
DO YOU SEE ME NOW..
DO YOU SEE ME NOW..

LIKE I'M INVISIBLE..
LIKE I'M INVISIBLE..

ugh,damn!i hate today so much!first,(i think) failed at physics test,(i think) failed at biology quiz,my pkn paper was gone,and i had a little *hmm2* with sum1.god,i really REALLy hate this day!apalagy bsk ada ulangan mat.huhuhuuuuu.please somebody rescue me before i lose control!mengapa sekolah suka menyiksa murit2 yang sangat manis ini?!

congratz yaah bwt 2 other couples..
Mandy und Rangga
Nanda und Mey (yg udah balikan)

ayoo donk teman2!jadiaan gih!byr smuanya berpasang2an..hehe
kan seruuuu tuuuh!
how bout me?!
lemme say that i'm fine being single
but i'm getting tired of pretending i'm tough
lol.

as i was saying,,cowo2 X2 tuh gentle2!satu kelas tuh bae2 bgt!makasy yah bwt rangga,xiao2,mus2,mariChan,teO.makasy yah rangga uda dipinjemin jaketna.trus bwt smua org yg ngebantuin gw pas lg sakit.huaaaaa.love you lots!bus X2 tuh emank gada mati'na.ada yang munta2 terus (which is me),ada yg mimisan (gw lagy),ada yg kentut,ada yg kencing di botol (mari),trus kido melakukan suatu aib (aib kelas nih,jd ag bs dikasi tau),trus karaokean,pada maen tebak2an,ada yg gandengan tangan,ada yg striptease.SERU SEKALY!trus banyak yg jadian pula lg!congratz yaah bwt chang en dane.hahaha.ampe gw stuck di kamar'na aconk selama stnga jam.overall,it's been a great trip!mau lagy!wiuuuw!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

waaaa!gw baru balik dr jogja nih td pagy.gila java tripna seru stenga idup!di bus tuh fun bgt!tapi sayangna gw didera penyakit2.huaaaa.bayangkan..pas perjalanan ke bandung gw muntah 2 kali.trus pas pulank dr jogja gw munta lg 2 kali.trus tenggorokan gw sakit,and ga bisa nelen.plus gusi gw rada luka gt jadinya klo makan susa.ditamba lg kulit muka gw yg lg ganti kulit.jadinya kelupas2 gt.jadi perih bgt,klo ketawa kayak ketarik gt.bweeh.dan..pas baru nyampe bandung badan gw rada panas gt.lemees BGT!gmn dgn penyakit gw?!hahahaha.a little is not enough.
tapi,,bus X2 serunya stenga idup!anak2 cowonya gentle smuaa!trus cewe2nya kompak2.gilaaa..gw cinta bgt ama kelas X2.hehehe.LAFF YA!

I have made a terrible mistake AGAIN!this is the second one!please,,forgive me my dear!i think i'm starting to like you!i think i'm in love with you.and i just said it.aww.

It's my birthday and I'll do what I want to
Fuck you it's my birthday.
A special holiday only for me, so do what I say.
It's my party, I'll make you cry if I want to...or leave.
Fuck you, it's not your birthday, so do what I say.
For 24 hours your wishing me well, 364 days I'm in hell,
Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me.
Alone on my Birthday.
I'm going to Denny's 10 times today, No Tip!
It's my birthday, so do what I say.
Thanks mom didn't have an abortion;
or my birthday wouldn't be today,
but I guess it's just my good fortune, my birthday's today ok.
For 24 hours your wishing me well, 364 days I'm in hell,
Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Spank Me!
Oh well,
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
I can't believe you forgot my birthday.
It's my birthday and you're wrecking it.
Now it's just like every other day you, didn't do what I say.
How could you forget my birthday?
That's really immature.
Fuck you for forgettin my birthday, you didn't you what I say today.
24 hours, no wishing well, now 365 days I'm in Hell,
Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.


*loves it!The Vandals,,you ROCK!

huaaaa..today is my birthday!happy birthday to me!haha.but why do i feel sorrow?!can't describe it.thanks for the people who sent me birthday messages.aaaah..so glad to have you guys as my friends.LOVE YA'LL!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

ARGH!i have made a terrible mistake!it was so stupid!i can't stop blaming myself!OH NO!please,,reply me again dear!i won't do the same thing.AGAIN!god please help me!tell him to do it again!i will reply him nicely!please!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

here i go all over agaiin.entah mengapa gw semanget bgt ngisi ni blog.haha.maklum lah,udik.10 jam lagi menjelang kedewasaan (or not).gw ngerasa kok gw umur 15 taon tapi masi kayak anak 12 taon.except the love things.i learnt aLOT from the past.i wouldn't possibly do the same mistake EVER again.haha.agak emosional ya?!sepertinya gw tamba dewasa dalam hal2 tertentu doank d.plus,badan gw seakan2 ga tumbu2.please god,tambah 15 cm sajaaah!ya tuhaaan..tolong!trus kurangin 8 kilo sajaaah,Tuhan!kabulkaaan permintaaan hambamuuu!amin.tubuh seperti anak kecil,wajah seperti anak kecil,sifat seperti anak kecil,suara seperti anak kecil,cara jalan seperti anak kecil,dan segala sesuatu selayaknya anak kecil.OH TIDAK!

everyday seems the same to me.membantu teman dalam urusan percintaan,tetapi tidak dengan diri sendiri.karena klo dipikir2,gw tuh bego bgt ya.knp?!knp gw bs sampe sebego itu?!but still,if we never fails,we never learns from experience.jd ya gw ambil hikmahnya aja.smua org ngelyt gw sebagai seorang yg 'slalu tersenyum','happy','cheer',but still don't now the weight that i'm carrying.behind my eyes,there's a sad girl crying.i couldn't able to wrap it up.hope there'll be someone who can take me away from the sadness.and when the time is come,i hope it's...HIM!

and I love you now

and I hate you now

and I miss you most of all

all those times we laughed

the scars that you left

still i miss you most of all

there's always something different going wrong

the path I walk is in the wrong direction

there's always someone fucking hanging on

can anybody help me make things better?

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~

hmm..skrg gw lg di rumah,ngisi2 blog.gada kerjaan,hari sabtu ga kmn2,hanya ol,dan terduduk di depan kompu,sambil masukin lagu ke iPod.oh mai gat!kesannya gw kesepian bgt ya?!huahaha.begitulah kehidupan saya.sejak berenti les biola,setiap sabtu jadi lebi banyak waktu bwt hore2.tp gw kangen maen biola lagi niih!kpn donk ya?!mauuuu lagiii!padahal gw udah ampir 2 taon tuh.huh,dasar guru sial!pake ngatain tampang gw nyolot lg.kyk tae.muka manis gini masa dibilank nyolot c?!mata lo aja tuh picek!katarak ya bang?!huahaha.hmm,okeh lanjuut!berhubung hari ini gw ga kmn2 brati nanti gw bs lanjutin nntn serial korea yang sempat tertunda gara2 'sudden death week'.bwt yg anak2 angkatan gw pasti tau dah 'sudden death week' tuh paan.hahahaha.untungnya sii uda slese.tinggal hari slasa kita mau java trip!asooy!tapiii..eits,tunggu duluu!pulank dr java trip nanti ulangan + project udah menunggu!let us pray teman2,mari kita hadapi dengan hati lapang!AZA!

~i've been feeling blue,well how 'bout you?~